few days ago i've read an entry about a broken heart. it's funny because the first time i read it, it was non-sense to me.. i couldn't relate to it at all.. little did i know it was preparing me for something unexpected.. it was sort of a warning.. i don't want to go into details.. i just want to write right this very moment.. i want to write cause im feeling different kinds of emotion.. sadness, misery, hope, denial, longing, weakness, fear, panghihinayang, pain- most of all pain..
i never expected id be hurt like this.. you know when ure preparing for something to happen and u know u'll be ready when it comes cause u've anticipated it for so long.. it's true that none of my preparations are helpful.. i still cry.. i still feel the pain.. even if i try to deny that i'm hurting.. but somebody told me that pain is good.. so i'll cherish every second of this moment.. i wanna remember everything.. cause i know someday i'll be okay (and i hope it's someday soon) and i'll be happy to reminisce this moment..
what doesn't kill you makes u stronger right?? and im still alive, hurt maybe, but alive.. now i have to wait for the stronger part..